Hey all. Thanks for all the advice. Its a funny group of advice, but it all seems to fit. Since I last wrote, I have been running around with Aaron, helping him celebrate his graduation. Now he is leaving at dawn to go to Lake Tahoe with his folks. He, his brother, mom, dad, and his brother's kid are all driving down there in the Cadillac Escalade to go gambling. I am going to stay here and ground out at my cabin and maybe go hiking (if I can afford it, gas is a buck and a quarter a gallon here - thank goddess that the saab gets a good 30 mpg).
But it has been a good week, sometimes the sun manages to peek through the clouds for a moment. The Northwest is funny like that - it is full on summer here, the trees are all leafed out, the peonies are blooming etc, but it is only 10 degrees warmer than January, and only slightly less rainy, but give it a couple of weeks and it will stop raining and not rain til October. Wierd.
I am coming home in August. If my silly sister would tell me when she is going to get married, then I could schedule things around her wedding, but otherwise sometime in August or early September you all will be seeing me. The drawback is that I am not coming home for the holidays. I am going someplace warm instead. I am sick of being cold.
The upside of my two job craziness is the produce stand. I eat the greenest, ripest, softest avocados, the sweetest artichokes, juciest strawberries, and yummiest mangoes everyday. For free. Yummmmm.
Yeah so I am on the upside of my bi-polar swing. I thought that I was going to freak at work tonight because I have PMS and the other bussers were slacking and all the guests were PITAS (pains-in-the-ass) tonight but then I stole outside and smoked a bowl and then everything was ok. My good manager even gave me a rootbeer float. Yee Haw.
But fuck all this shit man, we weren't made to work for other people like that. Life is about something other than making money and spending it. Its about more than war too and all that fucked up shit that you see on the news each night.
Most of the shit I hear everyday makes me more and more ashamed of my country. Makes me afraid of the concequences for our actions. All of it. I am sorry that we have become what we have become and I am thinking that life is not meant to be lived the way it is and everybody knows that. Another world is possible. Unfortunatly, I feel that had I not gone to college, then I would not have to live in the world as I do. It feels too much like a cage to me, I hav ebills to pay and I can pay them, but then I can not get the tatoos I want (because they would be on my forearm and I wear a short sleeved shirt at work.)
Anyhow I am getting brain numbmess from this computer so I am going to be gone now.
He Jesi...I know what you mean about the war and all. We are supposed to be over helping to free these people from the terrible life they had...and someone fucked up and makes us ashamed. I had nothing but tears for these people. Like you, I can't stand to have those pictures flashing in front of my eyes 24/7. The media sucks.I believe that whoever is responsible should have the guts to stand up and admit the wrong they caused these people.But, most of them are liars.......they hide behind lies. Well, with that said.
I am getting ready for our Memorial Day Celebration on the 30th, Jason graduates from basic on the 10th (Jim & I are going down to Georgia) & Ashley graduates from high school on the 13th. Then, I am taking it easy the rest of the summer. I've got to stay out of the sun, so I'll be gardening early or late afternoon. I just feel like zoning out right now, but, alas, window washing to day! Got to let the sun shine in! Love you......can't wait to see you........Sue
I like 'brain numbmess'-that is how it feels!
:)
You should come up and visit, girl... I'll give you a massage(my school likes to advertise that they are making the world a better place, one body at a time). Or mayhap we could descend on your sweet boggy haven with the kidlets and do a campoutty weekend some summery weekend?
Posted by: rzan at May 16, 2004 11:56 AM